I began this website for a course I’m taking at SNHU while working on getting my bachelor’s degree in English. It hasn’t been as easy as I thought it would be, so as is usual when my schedule gets a skewed, I had a bit of a break in my stability. When I get frustrated with any situation, I begin to forget how my brain likes to tell me lies, if I listen, I begin to fall toward depression. This time I managed to pull myself toward stable without causing too much embarrassment to myself or damage to anyone else. This time I only vented my frustration to my professor in an email and my husband when he came home, then I deleted everything I had started so I could try again the next day. So, no harm done, I just lost an entire day of work, a good recovery in my book.
Within the last few years, with some extra time on my hands, I have been able to step back a bit and recognize some of the tricks I have applied in my life in order to remain mostly stable and function. The most important one being sticking to a schedule and I don’t mean some thing as simple as what time to go to bed or what time to wake up to go to work. My schedule is very detailed, I get up at the same time every weekday, do the same things each day at the same time, listen to the same shows, take smoke breaks, when and how much weed to smoke before bed, etc., when I do this I do have to think so much, it leaves me with enough spoons to be able to be my best. As this blog progresses, I will add more tricks which work for me as I try to survive.